The topic of today’s blog post is CHANGE and how I/we can learn to embrace and trust life’s neverending detours and spontanuous rollercoaster rides.
I think I am a person who generally embraces change.
Actually, I know for sure that I love it as much as I sometimes resist it.
Obviously I only like it when I am in charge and I think I can control the when, how and what kind of change that is about to happen in my life.
Fact is, most of the time we dont really have control over it but believing that we do so is sometimes kind of soothing and calming (although just for a short moment until we get “woken up”).
In the last month I had to embrace change in many aspects of my life and because I wasn’t prepared and didnt “order” that kind of change intentionally (turns out that somehow I must have “ordered” it unconsciously cause it happened to be one of the biggest and most important life lessons ever).
Anyways, the feelings or rather reactions to that unexpected change were (in chronological order):
fear – resistance – denial – depression – hibernation and finally some lonely days, wallowing in self-pity.
Waking up and feeling powerless, scared, sad and empty (which turned out to be the exact opposite – feeling so much at the same time that I couldnt handle it so I labled it as “nothing”) made me realize how attached I was to that certain lifestyle, my environment, the people I was surrounded with and my routines I was desperately holding on to.
I assumed that because I didnt have a regular aka traditional or “normal” life anyways, I at least have control over the rest of my daily routine and what I labelled as “perfect lifestyle”.
Haha, yeah I had to laugh, too but only after I went through a rollercoaster of emotions, long talks, sleepless nights, no appetite followed by chocolate ice cream sessions at 3 am (Yes, I did live in New York and yes I watched Sex and the City…thats where I picked up that sh**).
That was 3 weeks ago.
I am better now.
I actually feel happy and alive again and its not only Bali (and currently Freo, OZ) and its sunny climate with the beautiful ocean, romantic sunsets, smiling people, coconuts, papaya and cacao trees along the streets (okeeeeey, maybe a bit) that might have benefitted to my healing process … its also the fact that I (again) learned and had to practise to let go, say goodbye (even if i didnt chose, wanted or planned this and couldnt even do it in person) but also and most important – EMBRACE the CHANGE !!!
What first seemd to be the dumbest and most unlogical thing the Universe could have sent me (cause to be honest, my life was pretty rad in the most hippie-surf-yogi-iest way you can imagine) I now see the big picture (again), I see the missing parts of the puzzle, I feel the effort it needed to get myself back up on my feet again and out in the world (aka rest of the balinese island) and go after what makes me thrive, shine and extreeeeemly happy –> MAKING CHOCOLATE
I know I know its nothing new and it might seem like I have never really abandoned this topic completely but you should know that my inspiration was limited and my horizon was not as big as I thought it was, it was the size of “my” beach and a beach is just a beach, but there is MORE out there…and it wants to be explored.
That’s why change happened to me.
Because life didnt want me to become lazy and too comfortable.
It wanted me to go after what makes me grow not only as a person but also as a pastry chef, a food blogger, a dessert lover, a recipe creator and of course a chocolate …. oh whatever describes my obsession over a block of brown beans best ?!? … you get the point 😉
I hope I could inspire and encourage you to accept and slowly embrace whatever life throws in front of you at that given moment.
And becaue there can’t be a blog post without a (dessert) recipe, I give you something that even matches today’s topic…
Changing up your ingredients.
Try something new, even if you have resisted it in the past…. In my case -> Protein powder!
Yes, an unusual and challanging ingredient that I am not the biggest fan of to be honest cause I dont consider it a “real” food and nothing I really use or have in my pantry but more and more of my friends and clients keep asking me whatelse they can do with that big black box of funky smelling (and tasting) powder that has been sitting on top of their fridge (or back of the cupboard) for a few months now and tastes absolutely gross in a strawberry-banana smoothie (I second that).
Here is some help!
In doubt – make Brownies!!!
These are vegan, gluten-free, soy-free and easily adaptable for a paleo diet (make sure you use grain-free protein powder)
The brand I used for this recipe is from Australia and I included the ingredients list below* so you can adjust accordingly to your liking (add more cacao powder or vanilla).
Chocolate – cinnamon sauce soaked Brownies
with almonds and protein powder
– vegan – glutenfree – soyfree – paleo friendly –
1 cup whole almonds, ground into a coarse meal
1/2 cup (vegan) chocolate protein powder OR 1/4 cup regular protein powder + 1/4 cup raw or regular cacao powder
(I used Coconut chocolate protein powder from the Australian brand “Nutra Organics”)
1/2 cup flour of your choice (buckwheat, spelt, brown rice,…)
1/4 cup chia seeds, ground into flower
2 tsp baking powder
1/2 tsp sea salt
50 ml strong coffee / espresso shot
1/4 cup coconut oil
50 g dark chocolate (mind. 70 %), broken into pieces
2/3 cup coconut or palm sugar
2 Tbsp apple cidre vinegar
1 cup plant milk
optional: 3 Tbsp almond butter
Pre-heat the oven to 180°C or 350°F.
Line a square baking dish with parchment paper.
I only had a big tray so i folded up the edges of the parchment paper to create another “tray” inside, roughly 20 x 30 cm or big enough that the batter is about 5 cm high – it will sink!)
In a bowl combine all the dry ingredients.
In a small pot combine all the wet ingredients and slowly melt together (don’t boil it – just gently heat up).
Pour over dry ingredients and combine with a spatular.
Let the mixture sit for 15 minutes so the chia seeds can soak up the liquid and form a gel.
Transfor the batter into the tray, spread it out evenly and bake 30 – 35 min (you want it still a bit wet inside).
Chocolate – cinnamon sauce
In a pot over low heat melt together
1 cup plant milk
1/4 cup coconut oil
1/4 cup cacao powder
approx. 1/3 cup coconut sugar (adjust sweetener to your liking)
1 tsp cinnamon
pinch of salt
Stir until everything is dissolved.
Poke the still hot brownie cake with a toothpick evenly and pour over the sauce (just enough so they are all covered, reserve the rest of the sauce for decoration) and let it soak for 1 hour at room temperature.
Garnish with chopped almonds, flaked sea salt, cinnamon and drip over the rest of the sauce if you like.
Makes about 15 medium size brownies.
*Certified Organic Sprouted Pea Protein Isolate, Certified Organic Coconut Crunch (Natural Air Dried Coconut Meat), Certified Organic Cacao Powder, Certified Organic Whole Brown Rice Milk Powder, Natural Cacao Extract, Certified Organic Sprouted Whole Brown Rice Protein Isolate, Flaxseed Meal, Aquamin (Lithothamnion calcareum) – Natural Calcium Source, Bio-Fermented Sprout Blend (Mung Beans, Brown Rice, Red Lentils, Chick Peas, Linseed, Alfalfa Seed, Millet, Quinoa, Filtered Water), Chia Seed Meal, Apple Pectin, Natural Sweetener (Thaumatin), Certified Organic Wholefood Herbal Extract Blend (Certified Organic Curry, Guava, Lemon, Amla, Holy Basil & Annatto), High Vitamin D Mushroom Powder.